Thursday, June 30, 2022

i fcking ❤️love❤️ this song (current playlist)🎵

 excuse my language 

Uh who cares…


Oh right. Also it’s like 1 AM and i have my job tomorrow i should be sleeping but— 

I made some cool new art and i want to share my recent music stuff i like! I made a whole document about music things so i might add that in a different post  :^}


Song i love

Tove Lo “Habits Stay High (hippie sabotage remix)”

It’s a very sad song but it’s extremely good, sounds like a fever dream, and i feel relatable  sometimes to the lyrics yes

https://youtu.be/SYM-RJwSGQ8


Current playlists 🎵🎵🎵 (some)
































Sorry these are all out of order 

( ´_ゝ`)

My music taste is extrmeely varied.

Person: What type of music do you like?

Me: Yes


So yea i drew some stuff :——-)


WARNING: Nudity, artistic nudity, themes of sex/pregnancy, drugs, some other mental health stuff, if you are sensitive and dont like it pls move on along um thanks!!! Have a great..uh..evening (its even later than 1Am now whaaaat)

First drawing is just a random creature with random poem i wrote (or just words, thoughts, feelings, something, anything…maybe it is a poem idk)





Yeet ok (i am a bit fond of this creature , maybe i will draw more creatures like this sometime soon)

So i , i like the somg by Tove Lo so I made a drawing/storyboard to play out what it would look like as a drawing, carttoon, illustration? In my head, although i do know its already a filmed music video.. I just wanted to draw it out bc i really like the song and i thought it might be fun to draw my own little version (these  are messy doodles haha but its ok yup ya) 

(I wrote the lyrics as i was drawing it too yahoo)
















Ok so yea that’s all for now, hopefully i can go to bed actually soon WOOHOO OK


:-) tiny apples ..  (usagi)

oh right i forgot i said this on my instsgram @usagi_kid but happy pride month (hoppy pride!🐸🏳️‍🌈🌈) 

And yes for me tbh the best gay couple is frog and toad 🐸🐸👏 hands down

But i do like plenty of other.. fictional lgbt ships? and str8 ones too i guess so :-)

Bht ok that’s a story for another time LOLOLOL

(I may be frog and toad’s biggest fan)
(Im also death the kid’s biggest fan OBviously)









gudnight😴☁️💦

Tuesday, June 28, 2022

Asuka plush progress photos

 :-)





I’ve added more to her face today! Will upload new photos soon.  Next step is to sew the eva horns and attach them :-)


Sunday, June 26, 2022

why i believe schools should mix autistic kids and neurotypical kids


 So most people agree that autism is a spectrum. High functioning low functioning are not the same.  

High functioning have  challenges such as… erm

- ocd

- depression

- adhd

- stress management

- making friends

- anxiety

But their challenges are somewhat severe but not severe enough to limit their ability to function in society. It becomes more of an “impairment”,  if that makes sense, not a “extremely hard, almost impossible to manage challenge”

Low functioning…I think I should make a comparison that isn’t hurtful.  If the wording in this makes anyone feel uncomfortable, I sincerely  apologize, I do not intend to. I just have a hard time explaining these things and this is the first thing I can think of..

Low functioning = rabbit, bunny rabbit

The reason why I say this is bc low function often has severe speech impairments, sometimes  they make noises to express themselves but a lot of them cannot express speech and can’t talk like regular people, not even like high functioning 

I also compare them to a bunny rabbit because they are not only verbally impaired but are shy, scared, sometimes extremely anxious, and thus we should treat them softly and like you would approach an animal, with kindness and acknowledge that this person is very different from you


They’re also like foxes or squirrels? Because sometimes they do start hitting, or physically touching the people around them, like their caretakers. Simply because they don’t understand that they shouldn’t do this, and   don’t really know how to control their anxiety


My thoughts are…

Why can’t high functioning kids with autism and kids without any disability (neurotypical), be in the same schools?

Of course low functioning is a different scenario but..

In my experience,  anyway, special ed was hell. Most autistic kids I knew would also bully or insult other autistic kids.  It’s like putting a bunch of angry tarantulas in a room of angry scorpions. Neither can resolve conflict in  a reasonable manner. I was probably like the skittish spider in that scenario, because I desperately avoided any sort of conflict. And yes that  often resulted in me being bullied, or hurt, or insulted

So it’s not like “nt kids would bully kids with asd” or whatever because “we’re so different and nt wouldn’t be able to understand autism as a concept”

In fact most neurotypcial kids  I knew growing up were very supportive of me and even much kinder and gentler than the autistic ones. 

It’s because nt kids become like the “conflict diffuser”

Not all the time, but..

They can’t always understand why autistic kids might do something different, but they are able of  a lot of emotional intelligence  (not everyone of course, and I’m not saying autistic kids don’t have emotional intelligence obviously)..and their response is more neutral than a kid with autism.  

Autistic kids at times need , and would deeply appreciate ,    nt kids. 

Kids that don’t have as many different and strange struggles or challenges…


They would almost be able to take care of them, if done correctly  and taught by teachers who are kindhearted and open and honest


It’s like, kids with autism have so many struggles, sometimes we are not taught basic things like emotional intelligence, 

Perspective taking,

Being kind to other people. 

I’ve always tried my best to be kind but I make mistakes, and because I have autism and girls are not always diagnosed properly (which is stupid and sexist..misogyny right there), I was only really around autistic boys growing up, with their own issues and struggles that needed to be worked out for them. (I never had a “best female friend” sadly, still trying to find though)

I was surrounded by them constantly that i never figured out some of my own issues then, and am still working on these issues now, because the boys with asd were prioritized, like most men are, regardless of disability

It wasn’t fair bc it’s like they expected men with autisim have a worse time, that girls can’t experience any feelings, that girls are so brainless and mindless  and optimistic  and happy with everything that they can’t even feel depressed,  that girls are just for sexual purpose and don’t have their own issues..

I hated that

And then people say..

“Well, men are oppressed too!”

Actually, they're not. 

Why do you think when boys wear dresses or act feminine, other men make fun of them? 

Because they’re acting like girls, and..

Girls = stupid??

See the irony there?

men being oppressed, they would be oppressed for being black men, being gay or bisexual, being feminine men or breaking gender norms, or being  autistic.. Not for just “being men”!  It’s really frustrating

Because people deny misyongoy and hate towards women so much

So explain to me, then, human trafficking, 

Degradation of women bodies,

“Sex slaves”

“Misogyny fetish” (when i saw that i almost threw up, and i cried inside ..ew)

Feminism being “radical” when it’s just women trying to have a space to talk about their issues openly, trans people or not, it doesn't matter- just trying to talk about their own issues without being judged or told their “wrong” or “stupid"  (it literally doesn’t make any sense)

What is radical about feminism? Women being treated right, having equal rights to men, trans can try to understand? Nothing

Men just want to be on top all the time

Also just look up porn, spanking porn, wife porn, and you’ll see how much videos of women are out there

Statistically there is SO MUCH MORE SUBMISSIVE WOMEN THAN MEN

Femdom is a tiny little population.. and it’s simply because some men like to see women be more assertive 

Being assertive… is not the same.. as being “dominant” or whatever

Advocating for yourself is important

People say dominant during sex means evil, nasty, bad..

It’s not. It should be “hey I get turned on by letting out some anger and feelings on the other person and hurting them sometimes but I acknowledge that she’s a person too, she’s giving her body up for me and i respect her for that and i care about her deeply”

It’s the same thing as men being showered as “the bad guys”

I just want women and men to get along and, and even love each other 

Men + women + people in the world regardless of race or sexual orientation etc=❤️🌎☮️ !

Not just romantically, sexually, but in general, in daily life

Is that too much to ask for?

hey, I love men.  I love women.  I even love trans men and women, high school drama out of the way. my friend is nonbinary and as much as i dont understand that fully, i respect my friend.  I deeply love how everyone is different and unique.. No one shows the same sort of love back, because they’re too busy arguing over who’s right, and who’s wrong, and competing for  air to speak

Also.. if feminism was radical (in the english language radical means extreme, as an actual definition), then why isn’t Black Lives Matter being yelled at for being “leftist” propaganda ?

Well i guess it is sometimes, so..,

But like..

Reverse racism means “white people can be oppressed” which is Not True   (Read your history books people) (the civil war happened over the problem of having black slaves!! White people wanted to keep their black slaves)

Misandary  means “men can be oppressed” again Not True (If you look at history of women being silenced and raped, sometimes women were slaves too in places, also black women were even more bc they were women and black at the same time.. it isn’t fair to them either..) (also: women couldn't vote, women had to stay at home, women didnt have education, in many countries girls STILL cant go to school, FGM [female genitial mutilation = BAD], women being forced into sex, women are highest percentage of r*pe victims, silencing women, unhealthy beauty standards being forced upon women, medical alterations of the natural female body ie botox plastic surgery even some surgeries for transitioning for FTM female to male people are very dangerous...plenty more)

So..

Misandary is the gender equavilant of  reverse racism!

Also, men can hve feelings, feel pain, and be sad, and be hurt, and this is totally valid

It’s just men and women are different

Double standards!!

If a women says anything about feeling bad,  most of the time people don’t care. And then if she gets upset or angry, she’s a bad person?

Then why are men allowed to be angry about feeling bad?

It’s a natural human emotion…

I just wish men could understand, feminism isn’t witchcraft.. it isn’t a threat to men.. it’s just a response to the trauma of being female..

I do my best to say this calmly, even with people with opposing views, but.. 

it feels like people don’t listen..or even care at all.. i try to care about their views, but they don’t seem to do the same with mine..

Sigh..

But..

Um..

I wasn’t talking about women I was talking about autism..

Sorry..

But yea if kids with autism and nt kids mixed, it might be a good way to bring people together despite differences, and also add variety to relationships

So everyone can be somewhat happy

Also, people often worry autisitc kids would “lash out” or something

This isn’t really a problem if everyone speaks about their issues openly, because the real reason why someone might “lash out” is bc they can’t express their feelings or are scared to talk about it

Maybe nt kids would help encourage autistic kids to say their feelings more

Again I’m not sure about what is best

I can’t solve all the problems in the world

But I do soemtimes believe that this could be a potential solution

Obviously it isn’t a black and white problem

Obviously there are plenty of grey areas, 

But yea


Thanks for reading i guess 

Pls don’t attack me for talking about women stuff.. Thanks

If you have constructive criticism

That’s fine

(But keep in mind i am depressed right now so i might not respond or delete the comment in order to feel mentally sane, but again it’s fine it’s not your fault) thanks for understanding :,)

tiny apples 🐶🍎🐾 !



new drawings and stuff yee

Hiya! New drawings :-)



I’m trying to start a small book or zine  for kids bc I’m working at the children’s museum of the east end. I was thinking which characters I have that are more “kid-friendly” because a lot of my characters and stories are much more for adults. I wouldn’t even consider them for young adults. A lot of the characters I have, in the stories, do stuff intimate stuff, intimate sexual sort of scenes, and there is a theme of mental illness in a lot of my stories that I don’t think kids would understand or be comfortable with.  

But I thought of a couple of options-
1. Host (a character I sometimes imitate, i think she pretty much represents my adhd because she’s very silly and hyper)
(I would have to keep Host extremely clean, like when I was a kid myself…) 
2. Tammy - cat’s life

Tammy cat’s life is a recent story I made about a girl who loves cats, but she gets turned into a cat one day after a dream she has where she’s a cat. She wakes up as an actual feline animal. Her family has a dog and a cat, and they are confused because an extra cat has appeared and they can’t find Tammy anywhere. They’re super worried, but they see the new strange cat being very friendly with the pet dog and cat and are confused and shocked. They come to the conclusion that it just might be Tammy but  are hesitant to believe this, thinking it is crazy, and disbelief in magic.  Tammy eventually asks the dog and the cat for help to help her turn back into a human, so she can reassure her family that everything is all right. 

Now, the beginning of it was slightly more “adult” when I planned it out…
I made a list of the family including Tammy’s character profile, the neighbors (the neighbors I haven’t drawn or planned yet actually but I was going to add them in the story as secondary characters), and the other animals present in the story. 








Here in my notebook I’m currently using as a sketchbook I’ve drawn some example pages that emulate more of a children's book. What I’m unsure about is how the story might progress and end in such a way that doesn’t confuse or scare kids but still keep them engaged in some way. I want it to be a positive story for kids, not a story that will teach them some morals or ideas or anything. It’s just supposed to be a fun easygoing story for them to help them imagine. 

This is what I have so far for it!





Okay, yea. So it’s definitely in progress and these are just small sketches to plan it out!

But yea that’s the update on drawing, hopefully I can update this blog with new sewing stuff very soon. I’m starting a new plush project while continuing to finish old plushies I’ve started, so yea!

thanks for reading! 
Tiny Apples 🐶🍎🐾


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