I’ve been drawing so many eyeballs-

 —-i think I have a problem 

EYES. EYES EVERYWHERE 

well, these are not just:

(waddle doo) (lol)

Or floating eyes for that matter…

They’re eyeball people ! Mostly girls 

Once again, I may have a problem

All I’ve been doing recently is drawing eye ball people :,) it’s actually really fun! 👁️  I wanna make dolls too crochet eye ball girl dolls and amigurumi stuff , definitely one of my goals  🎵👁️

Anyway see you later!

Tiny apples 🍏 🍎 <3

just watched the substance

 

Oh boy. Really crazy horror movie. I actually really liked it. It’s a horror movie in the subgenre of “body horror” and is a serious critique on modern trends and objectification and unhealthy beauty trends for women. It also touches on age, and how women are perceived as less attractive when becoming older, which in my thought was saying something about how society PERCEIVES older women.  It can be viewed as a feminism related film.

It starts with an older woman named Elizabeth who stars in a dance routine show. She stumbles across an ad on tv for a product called “the Substance”.  After hearing her boss trash talk her when she accidentally walks into the men’s bathroom and then gets word from mouth they’re going to replace her, and additionally after getting into a rather horrible car crash because she’s staring at a billboard featuring a much younger woman… it’s no doubt she goes and calls to pick up the Substance product right away.  The product warns her— “You are one. You are the matrix. You and your other self cannot be separated.” (Paraphrasing the exact dialogue from the movie.) 

She follows the routine with the injections for a while, until inevitably it goes horribly wrong. she starts bleeding out of her ear, having multiple throw up’s where she either throws up blood or a neon green liquid, her finger grows to look like she’s 100 years older (like not just an old woman’s finger but like a super old woman, a witch’s finger), she looses a tooth in one scene (actually this is at the end of the movie), and ultimately tries to kill her older self as her younger self, but this won’t work because they’re CONNECTED…  she’s the same person. Ultimately if she kills one version of herself, she kills HERself.  Ultimately she has a choice to abort, and terminate the process, but she chooses not to in ultimate obsession with keeping the younger version of herself purely for aesthetic ideals. So she keeps going, ultimately to her demise at the end. But I’m leaving the end of the film up for you to see. No spoilers here… haha 

Also Demi Moore is an excellent actress and I really enjoyed her performance. I’ve never seen other movies with her in it I don’t think to my knowledge, so I should look into her other films she’s played in. The other actresses did a great job too. 

From a horror standpoint, it definitely made me nervous or uncomfortable esp. with the medical, blood and body horror elements and therefore did its job on being a horror movie.  From a storytelling standpoint, it was pretty good. I had a bit of concern on the ending which could be interpreted differently depending on who you talk to. It, funny enough, as a horror movie, made me felt like I was about to cry some parts. That’s probably because some parts were rather depressing, for her mental state as she went thru these weird moments of going back & forth to young and old- and it was esp. sad and heart wrenching for me too as a woman myself who feels pressured by beauty standards and a stable discomfort/isolation of my body as well.  But some parts actually got me to laugh or chuckle a bit so I give it points for being a funny type of horror movie with some clever parts.  But BOY it was gross some times, lots of weird stuff you wouldn’t expect at the most unexpected moments. (The teeth part I had to look away a bit.)

I consider it dark comedy a tad, to be honest.  It’s very much a horror movie, but it has some dark humor moments. 

Now does it effectively make a impactful comment on bad, unhealthy, obsessive & repetitive beauty standards?  How much they’re enforced and shoved down the throats of many women? Especially growing up in a modern, image saturated society/time? Where everything is based on looks & talent? I think it actually does make an effective statement on that.  there are areas in which they could have told any specific scene differently to show some additional perspective but I think they did a good and well-thought job with addressing it. I mean heck, a lot of films nowadays wouldn’t really add this extra layer of commentary on the problems with rigid beauty standards. 

I also think the cinematography was generally really well thought out and quite good. Beautiful even, esp with the attention to detail in the things like the fish eye lens when her rather obnoxious boss is talking to her, the close ups on things like the bottle of liquids and the people’s faces and eyeballs and such. It’s really interesting how they made an effort to showcase certain things especially in important scenes, almost like those specific things had deeper symbolic meaning towards the overall message. 

Anyway thanks!  I’ll just say thank you for listening to my review of The Substance film - great movie and I’d give it like 8 stars. I’d love to watch more horror movies with a feminism twist (JENNIFER’S BODY BRO!)…like, as you know from my bio and past blog entries I’ve already deeply enjoyed watching indie horror film Jennifer’s Body.  (It’s also kind of dark humor in a way and definitely has a feminism element.) I’ve seen it two times and LOVED every second of it. It’s a great film as well. This The Substance film may come second after Jennifer’s Body. Both are very good and interesting to watch and if I find any more movies like this, I’ll be sure to review them to the best of my ability. Anyways, see ya!

Tinyapples <3 

Little Dreamer Kyandi 1

 Hi, I’m going to be sharing my webcomic on here from now on!

I’ll still post other updates, but I’m adding a section where I post every episode of Little Dreamer Kyandi in order. To what I currently have written, and I will write more as I go along. Yay!

Let’s begin with the first episode :-)

Episode 1 overview / synopsis

Kyandi goes to school, has trouble and daydreams in class.  She wakes up and ends up going to the principals office. from there, she meets Aka, a grumpy teenage boy with a hot head personality - and his small group of friends, Alice and RimRim. 

 starting now!!!!!

This is not complete but I will update it by the end of the week! Note to self: edit this journal entry!

all my current comics to date :-)

 i am applying for shortbox comics online comics fair. here is my application.

if you don't know what shortbox is, i highly recommend you check out their website!

https://www.shortboxcomicsfair.com/

note: i draw digitally and traditionally. therefore, some comics are digitally drawn, and some are hand drawn on paper and scanned. :-)

also note: it says alexia in my application form, but all my comics here are signed alex as that was the name i used at the time but it doesn't reflect me anymore.  

alexia / tinyapples is my name/pen name always, so yea :-)

ok here we go, feel free to browse at your own pace!

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short comic title:  moon girl

short comic title: oh my god my girlfriend is a cyclops!

short comic title: space girl (song by Chloe Moriondo & Frances Forever)

link to the song

short comic title: flamingo (song by Kero Kero Bonito)

link to the song

final example: cute short comic self bio / biography of why i'm making comics 

other examples of my art can be found on this blog.

I have more comics than this, but this is what I could fit. 

Also since some of my other comics are for a larger story I’m doing, I thought I’d stick with small contained stories for now.     Since it does say on shortbox FAQ you can’t use any previously published works or works you plan to publish later on.   I guess that’s why I used these more random examples.    That’s okay with me. 

But yes if you are so inclined feel free to check out the rest of the blog to see more art here and there. 

some nsfw art things are here and there, so be careful!

Feel free to ignore anything you don’t feel like looking at if needed. 

bye!  thanks for checking me out, and i'll write more next time :-)

- tinyapples

Bro just my thoughts (comic stuff)

 

working on my senior thesis is a lot of work ! Also last night I was thinking about the fact that my story Little Dreamer Kyandi is rather a bit personal because when I originally wrote it, I was having a hard time, it was a difficult time in my life. So I’m considering sharing it when I’m done but just not making $ of it. I think I don’t want to make money off my art sometimes. But yes, I want to share it among people who’d like to see, may be interested, like the idea etc. :-)

Kyandi and Aka’s dynamic as a starting point is very funny to read looking back at my story 

But for senior thesis class I’ve been adapting it into a comic anyway, just because it’s easiest for me to use what I already have instead of coming up with something new on the spot lol (which I could if I wanted but I was gonna make Little Dreamer Kyandi into a comic anyway! So why not)

But um so I have ideas for other story concepts. One is the Bunny story but that is very different from what I’ve been writing and my writing style— because it is a horror story. I don’t usually write horror, so it’s different. It’s similar concept wise to something like Elfen Lied or Jennifer’s body as those were some inspirations for it. 

trigger warning- there is some blood in my Bunny drawings.  (She is a dangerous woman haha)

But yea I don’t know. I’m just considering my options at this point. Going to SVA, going to art school is one thing but putting these elements into practice is another. I guess that’s the way it goes.

Anyway I’m gonna sign off but I’ll write more later!

Thanks! Also Halloween is coming up!

 (I still haven’t thought of what I want my costume to be lol) (I’m considering making my own costume from scratch like sewing an outfit of a character but IDK that would take a while and time is ticking!)

SEE YOU ON HALLOWEEN!!!!! :-D

Tinyapples <3