Asuka plush progress photos

 :-)

I’ve added more to her face today! Will upload new photos soon.  Next step is to sew the eva horns and attach them :-)

why i believe schools should mix autistic kids and neurotypical kids

 So most people agree that autism is a spectrum. High functioning low functioning are not the same.  

High functioning have  challenges such as… erm

- ocd

- depression

- adhd

- stress management

- making friends

- anxiety

But their challenges are somewhat severe but not severe enough to limit their ability to function in society. It becomes more of an “impairment”,  if that makes sense, not a “extremely hard, almost impossible to manage challenge”

Low functioning…I think I should make a comparison that isn’t hurtful.  If the wording in this makes anyone feel uncomfortable, I sincerely  apologize, I do not intend to. I just have a hard time explaining these things and this is the first thing I can think of..

Low functioning = rabbit, bunny rabbit

The reason why I say this is bc low function often has severe speech impairments, sometimes  they make noises to express themselves but a lot of them cannot express speech and can’t talk like regular people, not even like high functioning 

I also compare them to a bunny rabbit because they are not only verbally impaired but are shy, scared, sometimes extremely anxious, and thus we should treat them softly and like you would approach an animal, with kindness and acknowledge that this person is very different from you

They’re also like foxes or squirrels? Because sometimes they do start hitting, or physically touching the people around them, like their caretakers. Simply because they don’t understand that they shouldn’t do this, and   don’t really know how to control their anxiety

My thoughts are…

Why can’t high functioning kids with autism and kids without any disability (neurotypical), be in the same schools?

Of course low functioning is a different scenario but..

In my experience,  anyway, special ed was hell. Most autistic kids I knew would also bully or insult other autistic kids.  It’s like putting a bunch of angry tarantulas in a room of angry scorpions. Neither can resolve conflict in  a reasonable manner. I was probably like the skittish spider in that scenario, because I desperately avoided any sort of conflict. And yes that  often resulted in me being bullied, or hurt, or insulted

So it’s not like “nt kids would bully kids with asd” or whatever because “we’re so different and nt wouldn’t be able to understand autism as a concept”

In fact most neurotypcial kids  I knew growing up were very supportive of me and even much kinder and gentler than the autistic ones. 

It’s because nt kids become like the “conflict diffuser”

Not all the time, but..

They can’t always understand why autistic kids might do something different, but they are able of  a lot of emotional intelligence  (not everyone of course, and I’m not saying autistic kids don’t have emotional intelligence obviously)..and their response is more neutral than a kid with autism.  

Autistic kids at times need , and would deeply appreciate ,    nt kids. 

Kids that don’t have as many different and strange struggles or challenges…

They would almost be able to take care of them, if done correctly  and taught by teachers who are kindhearted and open and honest

It’s like, kids with autism have so many struggles, sometimes we are not taught basic things like emotional intelligence, 

Perspective taking,

Being kind to other people. 

I’ve always tried my best to be kind but I make mistakes, and because I have autism and girls are not always diagnosed properly (which is stupid and sexist..misogyny right there), I was only really around autistic boys growing up, with their own issues and struggles that needed to be worked out for them. (I never had a “best female friend” sadly, still trying to find though)

I was surrounded by them constantly that i never figured out some of my own issues then, and am still working on these issues now, because the boys with asd were prioritized, like most men are, regardless of disability

It wasn’t fair bc it’s like they expected men with autisim have a worse time, that girls can’t experience any feelings, that girls are so brainless and mindless  and optimistic  and happy with everything that they can’t even feel depressed,  that girls are just for sexual purpose and don’t have their own issues..

I hated that

And then people say..

“Well, men are oppressed too!”

Actually, they're not. 

Why do you think when boys wear dresses or act feminine, other men make fun of them? 

Because they’re acting like girls, and..

Girls = stupid??

See the irony there?

men being oppressed, they would be oppressed for being black men, being gay or bisexual, being feminine men or breaking gender norms, or being  autistic.. Not for just “being men”!  It’s really frustrating

Because people deny misyongoy and hate towards women so much

So explain to me, then, human trafficking, 

Degradation of women bodies,

“Sex slaves”

“Misogyny fetish” (when i saw that i almost threw up, and i cried inside ..ew)

Feminism being “radical” when it’s just women trying to have a space to talk about their issues openly, trans people or not, it doesn't matter- just trying to talk about their own issues without being judged or told their “wrong” or “stupid"  (it literally doesn’t make any sense)

What is radical about feminism? Women being treated right, having equal rights to men, trans can try to understand? Nothing

Men just want to be on top all the time

Also just look up porn, spanking porn, wife porn, and you’ll see how much videos of women are out there

Statistically there is SO MUCH MORE SUBMISSIVE WOMEN THAN MEN

Femdom is a tiny little population.. and it’s simply because some men like to see women be more assertive 

Being assertive… is not the same.. as being “dominant” or whatever

Advocating for yourself is important

People say dominant during sex means evil, nasty, bad..

It’s not. It should be “hey I get turned on by letting out some anger and feelings on the other person and hurting them sometimes but I acknowledge that she’s a person too, she’s giving her body up for me and i respect her for that and i care about her deeply”

It’s the same thing as men being showered as “the bad guys”

I just want women and men to get along and, and even love each other 

Men + women + people in the world regardless of race or sexual orientation etc=❤️🌎☮️ !

Not just romantically, sexually, but in general, in daily life

Is that too much to ask for?

hey, I love men.  I love women.  I even love trans men and women, high school drama out of the way. my friend is nonbinary and as much as i dont understand that fully, i respect my friend.  I deeply love how everyone is different and unique.. No one shows the same sort of love back, because they’re too busy arguing over who’s right, and who’s wrong, and competing for  air to speak

Also.. if feminism was radical (in the english language radical means extreme, as an actual definition), then why isn’t Black Lives Matter being yelled at for being “leftist” propaganda ?

Well i guess it is sometimes, so..,

But like..

Reverse racism means “white people can be oppressed” which is Not True   (Read your history books people) (the civil war happened over the problem of having black slaves!! White people wanted to keep their black slaves)

Misandary  means “men can be oppressed” again Not True (If you look at history of women being silenced and raped, sometimes women were slaves too in places, also black women were even more bc they were women and black at the same time.. it isn’t fair to them either..) (also: women couldn't vote, women had to stay at home, women didnt have education, in many countries girls STILL cant go to school, FGM [female genitial mutilation = BAD], women being forced into sex, women are highest percentage of r*pe victims, silencing women, unhealthy beauty standards being forced upon women, medical alterations of the natural female body ie botox plastic surgery even some surgeries for transitioning for FTM female to male people are very dangerous...plenty more)

So..

Misandary is the gender equavilant of  reverse racism!

Also, men can hve feelings, feel pain, and be sad, and be hurt, and this is totally valid

It’s just men and women are different

Double standards!!

If a women says anything about feeling bad,  most of the time people don’t care. And then if she gets upset or angry, she’s a bad person?

Then why are men allowed to be angry about feeling bad?

It’s a natural human emotion…

I just wish men could understand, feminism isn’t witchcraft.. it isn’t a threat to men.. it’s just a response to the trauma of being female..

I do my best to say this calmly, even with people with opposing views, but.. 

it feels like people don’t listen..or even care at all.. i try to care about their views, but they don’t seem to do the same with mine..

Sigh..

But..

Um..

I wasn’t talking about women I was talking about autism..

Sorry..

But yea if kids with autism and nt kids mixed, it might be a good way to bring people together despite differences, and also add variety to relationships

So everyone can be somewhat happy

Also, people often worry autisitc kids would “lash out” or something

This isn’t really a problem if everyone speaks about their issues openly, because the real reason why someone might “lash out” is bc they can’t express their feelings or are scared to talk about it

Maybe nt kids would help encourage autistic kids to say their feelings more

Again I’m not sure about what is best

I can’t solve all the problems in the world

But I do soemtimes believe that this could be a potential solution

Obviously it isn’t a black and white problem

Obviously there are plenty of grey areas, 

But yea

Thanks for reading i guess 

Pls don’t attack me for talking about women stuff.. Thanks

If you have constructive criticism

That’s fine

(But keep in mind i am depressed right now so i might not respond or delete the comment in order to feel mentally sane, but again it’s fine it’s not your fault) thanks for understanding :,)

tiny apples 🐶🍎🐾 !

new drawings and stuff yee

Hiya! New drawings :-)

I’m trying to start a small book or zine  for kids bc I’m working at the children’s museum of the east end. I was thinking which characters I have that are more “kid-friendly” because a lot of my characters and stories are much more for adults. I wouldn’t even consider them for young adults. A lot of the characters I have, in the stories, do stuff intimate stuff, intimate sexual sort of scenes, and there is a theme of mental illness in a lot of my stories that I don’t think kids would understand or be comfortable with.  

But I thought of a couple of options-

1. Host (a character I sometimes imitate, i think she pretty much represents my adhd because she’s very silly and hyper)

(I would have to keep Host extremely clean, like when I was a kid myself…) 

2. Tammy - cat’s life

Tammy cat’s life is a recent story I made about a girl who loves cats, but she gets turned into a cat one day after a dream she has where she’s a cat. She wakes up as an actual feline animal. Her family has a dog and a cat, and they are confused because an extra cat has appeared and they can’t find Tammy anywhere. They’re super worried, but they see the new strange cat being very friendly with the pet dog and cat and are confused and shocked. They come to the conclusion that it just might be Tammy but  are hesitant to believe this, thinking it is crazy, and disbelief in magic.  Tammy eventually asks the dog and the cat for help to help her turn back into a human, so she can reassure her family that everything is all right. 

Now, the beginning of it was slightly more “adult” when I planned it out…

I made a list of the family including Tammy’s character profile, the neighbors (the neighbors I haven’t drawn or planned yet actually but I was going to add them in the story as secondary characters), and the other animals present in the story. 

Here in my notebook I’m currently using as a sketchbook I’ve drawn some example pages that emulate more of a children's book. What I’m unsure about is how the story might progress and end in such a way that doesn’t confuse or scare kids but still keep them engaged in some way. I want it to be a positive story for kids, not a story that will teach them some morals or ideas or anything. It’s just supposed to be a fun easygoing story for them to help them imagine. 

This is what I have so far for it!

Okay, yea. So it’s definitely in progress and these are just small sketches to plan it out!

But yea that’s the update on drawing, hopefully I can update this blog with new sewing stuff very soon. I’m starting a new plush project while continuing to finish old plushies I’ve started, so yea!

thanks for reading! 

Tiny Apples 🐶🍎🐾

summer days

Animals I’ve seen outside so far!

And this.. but this is not a random animal.. it’s my cat :3

He says hi 

His name is Steven and he’s best boi (i love him)

Yahoo! Have a good summer yall🍊☀️🌿🌱🐾

my experience with having adhd

 Gonna get real on this blog!!! This is a bit personal for me but i think i should talk about it. I have a hard time sharing my experiences with others. So this is good practice for me i think. 

I was diagnosed with autism as a kid but my parents didnt tell me till i was like 13 or something. I grew up with adhd , however i never really  understood how it impacted my life, and i still don’t to be honest 💦🥲

I was good at writing as a kid but SUCKED at math (i still do). Now i know my writing is casual on here but i can write pretty well if i want to, but i prefer creative writing over essays and stuff (which they have you do in school anyway)

I actually have a math disability, actually. I envy and admire people who are calm and confident with math. When i start to do math and i can’t figure a problem out, it frustrates me so bad. And sometimes i give up. Because it makes my brain ache. Lol

But some people can sit and do multiple problems and have no issue at all. I just can’t…. But i think it’s different for people who have a reading disability, and are good at math. For me it’s the opposite. I used to read a lot but now i don’t. 

Favorite books.. uh..

I really liked harry potter :-) (pls don’t give me a hard time also i ship harry and ron sometimes they cute) (but i also think hermonine and harry are cute and underrated💕i know they didn’t end up in the end but i ship what i want! Haha. Also i loved dobby and i really loved hagrid he was cool. He reminded me of sus from gravity falls for some unknown reason.. they have similar vibes, idk). I loved coraline and other books by neil gaiman (i tried to read good omens but i was too young to understand all of it and it was so long! So i couldnt finish, but maybe i can someday!) also books i liked.. wind in the willows.. anything with anthropomorphic animals (yes, furries, i don’t care, i like anthros ok , it ain’t a big deal) 

Winnie the pooh. Rabbit? Peter rabbit.. ? Arthur books, but i watched the cartoon more. Arthur, man. I loved him. Him and Francine. Also buster. And muffy. I ship francine and muffy Sometimes lol. 

Gay arthur couples! So cute 🌈💕(i’m so sorry i think i followed the artist but i forgot their username/handle! The person who drew this. It’s super cute tho and i give them credit i am sorry i forgot the artist’s name, pls forgive me thanks..)

Other things about adhd i didn’t realize till i was older

- my hands shake 🙃i hate it so much bc i like sewing, but when i sew if my hand is shaky, it’s hard to control the needle and thread, Hand eye coordination is important in sewing bc you’re working with small things made of fabric. It’s also just a pain when my hands shake bc it makes me feel worried im going to drop something, its awkward..

- my thoughts move in the speed of my brain at 1000%

- even when i sleep, my brain is active, thinking or dreaming

It’s rare for me to have deep, thoughtless sleep (when it rains the sound of rain helps me sleep…)

- i have lucid dreams. Yes i never knew what this was called, but i remember when i was a kid i went to the bookstore and found a goosebumps horror stories book. The cover was a drawing of a kid going to camp, and all the other kids in the line leading up to the entrance had blank faces. Their heads were literally a sphere with no eyes, nose, mouth… so that night when i went home the image was still in my mind when i fell asleep. I had a dream that i was going to school and i could faintly see people with no faces, but my brain was trying to avoid them. In the dream i flopped on a sofa, couch, in the front room of the building, and closed my eyes and i heard footsteps coming in my ear, like as if on cue my brain started imitating the sound of footsteps and it was clear in my mind, and i was scared.  I didn’t want to see what was coming up to me. So i started begging myself.. wake up, wake up, wake up.!!! And i forced myself awake right before i saw what it was. 

That was my first lucid dream and i didn’t know it was called lucid dreaming till much later. 

- This happens so much to me nowadays that it’s basically the plot of my story/comic/animation i’ve written about in here before: Little  Dreamer Kyandi. I wrote some new info about it i’ll upload here soon.  Yea! Lucid dreams are weird and freaky man. But it’s odd, sometimes i kind of  get excited to have them before going to bed, i even kind of want them to happen.. it’s real strange

- and finally.. uh.. stopping, and starting again. Adhd is like my brain is flicking around. I’m also very visual and can see pictures in my brain and it helps me daydream stuff. Sometimes i have whole scenes for stories or even animations just play out in my head.  Adhd is also like I’m on drugs? Or crack or lsd but i’m not.???  Haha.. it’s painful to think about. It fuels my feelings of depression sometimes bc i act weird a lot in public spaces bc of my brain moving so fast.  And no, it’s not fun or trendy, it’s a pain in the ass and i wish i didn’t have  adhd.  Or at least less severe adhd. Like mild adhd. I wouldn’t want to change my entire personality, but adhd is a chore and it makes me take too long on things, get distracted easy, forgot things, focus too much on one thing..

- sometimes i want to feel productive, so  i sit around and think  what i want to do to be super productive in the best way possible that would benefit me the most, instead of ACTUALLY being productive.  I waste my time thinking of what i want to do instead of actually doing something. 

- …and talking to my self.  Awful, horrible habit i need to break somehow. Too many impulsive thoughts get said out loud. 💦

Ok that’s all i can recall about my experience of autism/adhd but if i think of any other things i’ll write it here. Boy. Thanks for sticking with me till the end, if you did. Lol. Sometimes it’s hard to explain in one sentence. 🥲😂

Ok, see ya later!

It’s what? 12AM? I’m so tired ppppppp

Blargh 

ZOOWEEMAMA

🍊🐶🎵

Also i have some fun stuff i might write or add on here tomorrow!!! :D

packing Etsy orders is fun and satisfying! :-)

I am trying my best with my sticker business on Etsy, currently I’m mainly selling stickers and art prints, but I sold some plushies before that I made...in the past...though I hope to make more handmade plushies soon, and list them in the future as well!

(little mouse club on Etsy is my shop...!)  ( link: https://www.etsy.com/shop/littlemouseclub )

Recent orders have been packed 👍 yay! (I am sharing some photos, but I painted over parts like names and addresses for privacy reasons of course)

It’s actually kind of fun to make the package nice, and add some freebies and a friendly note, which is part of the process I guess :-)

 I add around 2 random stickers as freebies with my Etsy orders, because why not :-D it’s a nice thing to do and helps people be more interested in my art, and my Etsy, plus I like adding an extra sticker or two because  it’s like them getting a tiny slice of my life, and art things I like 🎵

See you next time! 🐶 🍓 🧋 🌼 💕

💛 usagi kid / tiny apples 💛

sewing updates!

 Hiya! Here are some basic updates on what I’ve been doing recently if you’re interested? 🐶🍓 :-)

I have new drawings I guess? Also the image above is a recent drawing too (chubby Asuka and Rei! A cute concept, I wanted to try…!)

I started watching Neon Genesis Evangelion and I think it’s my favorite anime after Soul Eater nowadays! If you know me on instagram (usagi_kid is me) I’m a really big Soul Eater nerd and Death the Kid enthusiast. :-D I think my favorite in Neon Genesis (NGE? Is the short name? Haha) is Asuka, definitely Asuka.  She’s so relatable to me, I love fiery redhead characters…❤️ I want her to be happy too… :,)

Um. I also might have a small crush on her. Yes i don’t care if she’s a girl I like both girls and guys and I’m a girl :-) but idk if I like girls or guys more? But sexuality is a confusing thing for me man haha :,)

So I’ve gotten really into sewing again !! that’s why the title of the post is called “sewing updates” but I guess it’s more sewing and  art updates because I like doing both…!

Recent things I’ve made? Yea?

Apple cat!

Still working on a frog sewing project…!

Also I’ve been trying to do stop motion animation a lot more. It’s becoming a high area of interest for me. :-)

Here are the stop motion projects I’m trying to do!

The bunny girl— supposed to be Kyandi but I made a slightly different version of her where she’s a rabbit— She’s pretty able to stand, sit, bend her legs and straighten them well, her arms are not fully sewn on yet but she’s pretty soft and versatile.  Her inner skeleton is made from pretty thick wire so she can move around freely, mostly anyway, with some improvements to be made in the future! 

The other one is an attempt of making Kyandi out of foam and wire instead of fabric and wire, the first one with foam was actually for a class. :-)

Here is a short I made, with her, the one I’m most satisfied with in terms of movement…!

Ok I think that’s all I have time to write about now cause I gotta do errands and eat but here is a small update on my etsy shop!

Here’s where you can find my stuff on etsy!

https://etsy.me/2VghQoD

See ya later! Thanks for reading! 🌈 🦋 ✨ also stay safe and have a good day :-)

sewing plans for the future

 

tiny apples - sewing plans! for the future! 

 

Things to add to the label "sewing":

 

• Any or all of your sewing patterns

• Doll / BJD clothes patterns that you've made or found 

  (link back to original blog)

• Plushies / soft toy patterns that you've made 

  (again, if found from another source link back to original blog!)

• Knitting / crochet patterns  (same with other patterns)

• Photos of in progress projects! 

  (you can write about what you worked on 

  and what you're trying to make)

• Photos of finished projects! (yay! take nice photos!)

• Daily/weekly updates on sewing work

• Drawings for clothing ideas / clothing/fashion sketches

• accessories sketches / miniature sketches/ideas for miniatures

  (these'll be drawings/doodles 

  for sewing things you'll make in the future!) 

my workspace :o)

 

 (my workspace is now changing 

because i move from the dorm at school to my apartment!)

 

a photo of my current BJD crew ^o^

 

 

1.  Death the Kid nendo

2. Patty nendo

3. Mariko (Pipos doll)

4. Jelly (FairyLand littlefee)

5. Kyandi (Azone doll)

    

    

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current projects at the moment

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Jelly’s lavender shirt ---> to final capsule heart shirt

 

Jelly’s frog hat based off an actual frog hat I own

 

 

Capsule Pets plushies series ---> redo 1st Capsule Pet to make neater?

 

shoebox diorama :-)

 

amigurumi Death the Kid (and other amigurumi crochet practice)

 

doll-sized patchwork blanket

 

“YARP” dog patch

This cool bag!

FRONT

BACK

 

Instructions for Jelly’s shirt

 

Material list

• Mildly stretchy / regular cotton fabric (for shirt making)

• Pattern (if you can’t find the pattern on Google Drive, 

  search online “YOSD shirt pattern” and it should come up)

• Velcro (or plastic snaps/buttons) so you can close the shirt

• Embroidery patches (for deco)

• Iron on fabric transfer sheets (in case you 

  want to put a bigger image on the shirt) 

  (you’ll have to print the image on the iron on fabric 

  transfer sheets, not regular paper! You can also use 

  fabric paper meant for the printer, but iron on fabric 

  transfer sheets gives a cleaner result,

  without the stitching lines…)

• Sewing machine or needle and thread for hand sewing

• Pins, thread

• Other notions? (if you forgot anything?)

General sewing Instructions 

1. Print out the pattern from Google Drive (the shirt pattern for 

   YOSD/littlefee) on plain paper (scale as needed)

2. Cut the pattern out, leaving seam allowance

3. Pin the pattern to the fabric and cut out each piece of the pattern

4. Start by sewing the first sleeve to the first side of the shirt (lining up)

5. Repeat by sewing the second sleeve to the second side of the shirt

6. Notice: The front of the shirt is one solid piece. 

   The back of the shirt are two pieces that line up together. 

   (velcro will open and close shirt)

7. Notice: the opening where the neck goes through should 

   line up with the sleeves and each side of the shirt

    

   TO BE UPDATED!

    

   

   
    

notes about Capsule Pets!

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capsule pets is an in-progress plushies series I'm making :-) 

different animals/pets will be added, and the similar theme is 

that they have a "capsule" shape on their bellies. it will be made 

from transparent fabric or a transparent object, so you can 

see through the capsule, and inside will be filled 

with all sorts of cute things. ^o^

 

stuff you could put inside a capsule pet:

1. pom poms

2. glitter

3. tiny toys or miniatures

4.  clay charms you've made

5. chunky glitter shapes

etc

the reason why i'm making these is because i was recently inspired by 

Webkinz, and i like the theme of having a story/online counterpart to 

a plushie. the whole "capsule" idea was a little random, though, i think 

i'm just really into cute things like that and i've seen other 

plushies or toys-- especially retro ones-- with that aspect of having 

some sort of filling or transparent shape in their design. 

 

ok, that's all!

 ^3^ 💗 💕

 

here's a drawing of the first one I made: I drew this after making the plushie, 

but the sewing of the plushie isn't finished yet!

 

 drawing:

 

  

plushie (draft):

 

 

(it looks a little messy, so I might redo it or make edits to make 

it look neater. but for a first try, it's pretty decent, i think!)

 

thanks for reading my sewing plans for the future! 

I hope to update this blog with more sewing projects 

as I made them!